End of Exams

Exams ended yesterday. shit! failed 2. i think i did okay in the other two. but fuck. 2 subjects failed!

Failed as in failed the subject - having to repeat the subject agian. Not ur 'asian' fail.

Now I hope I can get sup exams. Or else I really have to come back next year and do 2 subjects and delay my graduation, post-grad and everything else in life.

Holidays now. working at the election on Saturday! And then gonna try and ask for more shifts at Coles. I'll check in again later!

Toodles)

just checking in...

Whoever is reading this probably thinks this is the boring-est blog ever. its not like other blogs with pics... and other random stuff. *sigh* there's no real gimmick to this blog. Its just plain old boring me!

All this blog is about are some lame stories of my life.

well I got one. I was studying last night right. Finished at around 12am. Then I thought I should reward myself for procrastinating so well till 12am. So I decided to watch this TVB game show with some of the actors/actress in the drama I'm currently watching. Then about 10min into it, I hear 'knock knock knock' on my door. Then I thought to myself, who the hell could that be? First I thought it was a ghost cos... I've been watching so many ghost shows on TVB lately and the first thing that comes into mind as of late are G-H-O-S-T-S... But thankfully, it was just my mother. She came in, and told me off for staying up so late and told me I should really got to bed because I have work in less than 6 hrs time. Then she peeked at what I was watching... and she was like, wow, that looks funny, can I join?... ROFL! First she tells me off, now she goes and watch TVB with me for another 20-30min or so. WTH! I think the word for her is hypocrite! But I find it quite funny. My mum gives in to any kind of TVB. Just like me. Like mother like son (actually i know it should of been like father like son, but dad doesnt like tvb as much...)

Sigh... I hate this feeling. exams. nerves. failing. being unsuccessful. so down atm. neglect. tong emails. esp with everything thats going on right now. what am I saying!? all crap!

toodles=

Procrastination!

You can tell when I am proratinating pretty badly...
-I've been more active on facebook than ever
-I've started new facebook games
-I've started a new TVB series
-I take notice of how birds like to come pass our outdoor kitchen...
-I'm listening to some lame K-pop music
-I'm about to youtube
Lastly but not least...
-I've blogged 2 times in 2 days. Must be a first on my blogspot!! gah!!

Toodles^

And so it begins

Exams started today. Had one. Totally failed. It was a 80% exam. Was kinda aiming for 70s or 80s. I don't think I came close to it. Partly beacuse I went mind blank and partly beacuse it was too hard to be finished within 3 hrs.

I have 2 exams on wed and fri. Worth 80% and 70% respectively. Dunno how I'm gonna surivive to tell you the truth...

And then there's this exam the week after which I literally (when i mean literally, i'm not lying) dunno anything about. Extremely worried I tell you. This is my last semester. I don't want to come bak to uni nxt year to 'finish' off my subjects because I don't have enough credits to get my bachelor degree...

Oh. I'm procrastinating already! Look, I'm posting on my blog. Next I'll be playing my facebook games. Then I'll be happily watching my tvb dramas. *SIGH* no wonder I never do well on exams. No self-control... HA!

toodles!

i wish...

Sometimes I wish I studied during the semester. so then i don't have to stress about cramming the whole course during swat vac and the exam period. got 2 more assignments to finish off. get those done, then i shall start studying for my exams...

Sometimes I wish my folks were rich. So then I don't have to work. So then I have more time to do some other stuff...

Sometimes I wish I was more organized, pro-active, and managed my time better...

I did wish for a new desk chair. And I got it. It's one of those high back panel ones. Its not leather. Just your normal office chair with arm rests. but its comfortable. its not completely new. it was off ebay. 25 bucks. I can actually lie on my chair now and watch tvb w/o damaging my neck. what an awesome chair. its worth it!

toodles...

Exams!

Arh, exams are coming up! And I'm not ready. Crap!

Also. Got one of my assignments back. Was only worth 5%. got 17/20. My grades seems to be slipping down. First i got 15/15, then 18/20... and now 17/20. What's nxt? 15/20? I hate assignments where they don't tell you the amount of marks for a particular question. And they give more marks for 1 stupid question than a hard one. Like it doesn't balance out. A hard question was worth like only 5 marks out of 20. And the tutor said there was only 1 person who got it right entirly (me)... but i did have a little help with some research on the internet ^^. But there were x3 easy questions for the 1st qustion, and they were worth 3 marks each. I was so careless, and got one of them wrong. Damn it! I'm so stupid!! I would of been the only one of a class of 80 to get 100% on that assignment. But oh well, it was only worth 5% and you can't have everything. And I did kinda cheat. But it would gave me a sense of accomplisment (of some sort).

What else has been happening? Nothing much. A friend gave me an umbrella randomly. She see me sometimes bring a huge umbrella, and sees me not bringing a umbrella when it drizzles cos i said it was too much trouble. So during the break, she flew to Shanghai to go to the Shanghai Expo, and when she came back she gave me an umbrella. Like the small ones. ^^

I think there's not much else to talk about. Been doing to usual, uni, work, sleep, tvb (new series nxt week ^^)... and what am I going to do in summer? Who knows. Let's wait and see... or should I say let's get these exams over and done with first before thinking about freedom for 3 months.

Toodles.

I better post before August is up!

HAHA. I'm trying to make an effort to post at least once a month. Seeing its nearly September, and I haven't posted in August, I thought I'll do a quick blog post now! Or else it will be like my last blog... on MSNspace! i.e. posted regularly, and then slowly... slowly stopped posting. I want to keep this blog kind of consistent and in existance! Oh look that, did that just rhymed?

Life has been ordinary. Uni, work, church... Nothing much is going on. But I am trying to make an effort to go to church nowadays. Just trying to go everyweek. I knew before I was super slack with going to church. Like, I only went on the days I played piano. But for the past month or so, I've been going whenever I could. Not whenever I feel like it. Even though I feel super tired from a 9 hr shift at work, I'd make an effort to go. Unless I am ill or I have a massive assignment due the nxt day. So thats the story with church so far.

Work... one of the guys I usually work with, went on annual leave. The guy usually does the front bunk work. He comes in at 5am, puts the ice on the bunks and then puts the veges that will go well on the ice. Now he's on annual leave, I have to do it. But luckily I don't have to come in at 5am. I just come in at my usual time around 6am. But I must admit, working at Coles is pretty physically demanding. In some sense, I wished I had another job. But realistically, I'll never find such a job which is so close to home, where I can walk to work, save time on public transport, and can go home for lunch! (and get paid reasonably wel). But I wish I could work somewhere when I just sit there all day and use my brain or not having to move around like a mad chook trying to get things done! I've been trying to see what kind of jobs I can get with my degree. Even though I don't "officially" finish my planned course until 2012, I want to see what I can do in the future. Because I don't want to be suck at Coles for the rest of my life. For a number of reasons really. I want to earn more money, I want something that is not physically demanding, and I want to do something that actually relates to my course and shit I've been studying for the past so-many years you know? But the industry is so narrow. And you need to be good at speaking with clients. And obviously, I'm not the "good-at-speaking-kind-of-a-guy" type! So I dunno whats there. But I'll trust in God that He'll provide me with something (hopefully)

Uni... sigh! end of week 5 already believe it or not! And it seems Ive havent learnt much. I'm doing all maths this semester to complete my major and finish my bachelor degree on time... (after changing from one major to the nxt so many times =.=) Luckily, my degree is so flexible so I could do that! But I wish I could have done a double degree, i.e. com/sci! or even just stuck to something. Not changing my mind all the time. It frustrates me! But oh well, should be graduating by the end of this year (if I don't fail any subjects). Actually, speaking of failing, I'm quite worried for some of my subjects. i.e. Complex Analysis. Its really complicated and complex. LOL. And the lecturer doesn't help. I should be really helping myself by looking up the material in other textbooks or even ask the lecturer for help. And what I do... I procrastinate and watch TVB. I only got 70% for my first assignment. and thats really crap!! :( Cos for maths subject assignemnts, you would want to try to get 100% on the assignments because the exam is worth 80% of the subject. So you need some cushion from the assignment marks so won't get stressed out when exams come about. Discrete Maths. Its interesting. I wouldn't mind learning it, but I'd hate to get assessed on it. We learn heaps of stuff. i.e. counting. Statistics is such a horrible subject. I spent hours doing this assignment last night. Trying to get it done. 13 questions for just a 5% assignment. It's really not worth the time and effort! And each of the question is not easy as well! It totally stressed me out. Decision Making is probably my favourite subject. It probably has the worst lecturer, (same lecturer as graph theory) but the computationally wise of the subject is exceptionally easy! But some concepts are hard to get your mind around it. But I do find it really cool! Got 1st assignment back. Was really easy! easy 5% achieved.

okay, thats enough of blogging. May see you next month hopefully!

Toodles!

bak to uni!

oh oh oh! bak to uni today!! Can't believe a month of holidays just flew past just like that!! Im not happy!

So what has happened over the past month? first week, I literally did nuthing. I had to recharge my (body) batteries because I was literally dead after my exams. They were just too painful. What I actually did was just slept in, lay in bed, watched tvb, kdrama, and did some deep cleaning of my bathroom and vacumming the house.

then i was luckily enuff to work full time at work for the nxt two weeks. On a positive note, it meant I have more moneys now, and I can happily spend it all. On a sad note, its actually not that much (after tax), I comprised my holidays to work and I didn't have time to clean my room...

then for the 4th week, I started uni a week earlier than everyone else. Well, most anyway. I did a tasting 'wine' course. It was quite fun. I did it with a mate. And I made a couple of friends while I was there. Which was nice... but it was so draining. On two of the days of the week, we started at 8:30am and we didn't finish until 7:30pm. But if the lecturer didnt re-schedule the breaks, we would of finished 9:30pm instead!! *shocks* Having said that, I had to leave the house at 7am and I didn't get home until 9pm ish... I shall talk more about wine soonish! But I feel I have accomplished something i really wanted ever since. So I can tick one of the boxes of my life's goals :)

Oh. I got my results for my subjects. They were okay... Prob one of the more consistant semesters I had. Barely passed one of the subjects though. But having said that, I didn't really study it, nor really paid attention in the lectures, nor been to tutes, or did any of the problem sheets. LOL! But I was kinda expecting 60+ and not as low as 53!! And with the other subjects, I was expecting close to 90, but not low H1s. But a H1 is a H1 i guess... Can't complain!! :)

Oh, and one more thing. Why does embarrassing things always happened to me on the 1st day of uni!? 1st semester with the lift incident. Now this semester, the road+tram incident. I shall NOT elaborate. 'cos its too embarrassing!!!

toodles.

its over!

yup. exams are indeed over! Dunno if I passed all of them, but we shall find out in 2 weeks time. At the moment, I don't give a shit about my results. Well, actually I do hope 2 of the subjects that I put time and effort into, will actually give me good results. and the last two... i dunno. A pass??? pls?

Anyway, how will I spend my holidays? who knows! Work possibly? Go out? Watch TVB? Though my holidays are cut short to 3 weeks cos I have to go and do a short course on 'wine' :) I'm going to learn about how to drink wine, their differences, where they are from ect ect. So that should be quite interesting.

For now, I'm just going to bum around home, clean and relax! I'm downloading a drama. "I'm Sorry, I Love You." A Korean drama which my friend told me to watch a while back ago. Of lately, for some reason, I'm getting into the whole 'korean' side of things. I enjoy listening to k-pop! It was k-pop which got my through the examination period. It sounds so catchy (even though I do not understand a word they sing... but sometimes they have english words here and there)...

Anyway, toodles! I'm going to do some houeswork!

1 down, 1 more to go

So disappointed in today's exam today. It was so hard! I was anticipating a similar exam like previous years. And in previous years, all the exams were pretty damn easy. It was do-able and it was possible to get 100% on it.

So why am I disappointed? Well, tbh, I'm not disappointed in myself and my performance, what I was more disappointed about was the fact that the lecturer set some outragous exam questions which made it impossible to do. At the end of the exam, everyone was turning around and bitch'ed how hard the exam was!! Compared to last year's paper, this paper would of probably been twice as harder? They were questions that we never came acrossed! And they were questions that were very tedious and difficult. Not a happy camper! But I did all the other questions and hopefully I computed them all correctly. Even the first question I stumbled on... but I eventually got it after leaving it out at the beginning.

I'll be honest with you. I was aiming for a 99 in the subject. I never got over a 95 before, let alone a 90... my highest came out of was Engineering Maths which I came close in breaking the 90 mark for the first time. But that was unsuccesful. But with this subject, I did so well in my assignments and test. I got 29 out of 30 marks overall. But now I have doubts in getting a H1 because of this exam. I was hoping I could crack the 90 mark for the very first time, but I guess it wasn't meant to be. On the other hand, if I did the subject last year, it would of been a different situation... life goes on!

I'm not disappointed in my performance. I reckon I faired alright! Considering there's an exam tomorrow that I had to think about as well. But I AM disappointed about not getting a 90+ for this subject...

I'm utmostly screwed for tomorrow's morning exam. :( Wish me luck!

what is considered bad??

Today during dinner I got into the discussion 'what makes someone a bad person'? with my parents. My parents started listing examples of their friend's kids saying they are bad because of such and such. Having known the people they were talking about myself I tried to defend them because I personally they are not really bad! One example they said this kid is bad because he lies to he's parents that he is going to tutor, but instead he uses the money that the parents gave the kid to tutor for other purposes. Then I was like...right, thats considered bad in your books? I just don't understand why that is bad. Well to some extent it is because you are stealing from your parent. But come on, who hasn't stole from their parents and lied to them? I can say I have. I remember I stole coins from the car to buy snacks when I was primary school. Prob because all the other kids have canteen snacks except for me. They don't know what other 'factors' out there that makes a bad person. So I started listing things like the kid takes drugs, having one-night stands and kills people. And my parents said, well those are extreme cases and if that happened to us we won't even consider the kid actually related to us at all. We will pretend that we never had that kid before. How loving is that? But what I was disgusted about them the most is that they talk about other people's kids and how bad their are without thinking whether there is another side to the story. Because all they are hearing are just the parents side and sometimes adults can exaggerate! *sigh* parents... they always think they are right. And when I try to tell them my point of view they stop me, and say no no no, that is not right, because I am right. Its probably because they listen to too much chinese radio and reading too many of those chinese books...

2 down, 2 left

I've done 2 exams already and have 2 left. one on thursday and one on friday.

thursday's one. I think i'll be okay once i get through the material and do some practice exam papars. we are allowed a cheat sheet so I can write stuff on it. so im not too worried about that. but I do want to do really well in it, since I've only last 1% in my assessment so far. so I want a decent mark for it. but the exam is worth 70%... :(

friday's is shitting me cos I dunno anything. I shall study some of friday's exam maybe later 2nite. its worth 80% and I'm a bit worried. cos its hard! :( But I shall try my best to pass it~

the first exam I did was probably the most important one. it was worth only 50% BUT BUT BUT... the marks for this subject will be contributed to my average to get into my Postgrad. So I had to do extraordinary well for it. I spent nearly 10 days studying intensely for it, covering all the dervations of forumalas and trying to understand everything. And what it turns out, none of that was examined :( what a total waste of time! but I think i did okay to get over 75? maybe 80+? who knows...

2nd exam which i did a few days ago. I think that went okay. I had a week to study for it, but i practically procrastinated for 4 days. it wasn't until after the 4 days I felt the "importantness" and how the exam was approaching. it was only a 2 hour exam and only worth 50%. I was smart. I only studied the sections that i thought it would be on the exam. Cos I remember the lecturer saying that there will be 9 topics that will be examined on the exam but we only chose 5. So I went through the course and drew out the 9 topics and then picked the 5 that I was most comfortable with. And (thanks God) that all the ones I picked were exactly on the exam XD! Although at times I went mind blank and didn't know what to write. But since it was a management subject, as long as it made sense, its logical and somehow complies with the theory we covered, then it will be partially right. Unlike maths where its either right or wrong, management you can bs your way through and still get marks. I answered everything and wrote like a crazy man. Wrote like 26-pages. But then again, I had massive writing and you know the exam books they have huge margins and lines. so in actual fact it ain't that much. But anyway, my hands was tired after the exam and I was so relieved I got that exam out of the way. I know I wont get H1, cos I didn't do well in my assignment during the year. But I know I did well enough to pass, and hopefully a decent mark too, not just a P.

Now I shall go and study. I dunno why, but it seems like throughout these weeks Ive been putting tvb first instead of studying. I'm really up-to-date and I'm loving the new sit-com with 李司棋, 黎耀祥 and 毛舜筠... and the other one with 林峯 & 楊怡. XD.

toodles...

hi

I told you I'll come back when I procrastinate... hehe!

Stories. I don't have stories to tell. My life is been really boring for the past week. I've been sitting in front of the computer intending to study. But that failed! Instead, I've started a new game on Facebook called My Empire. Pretty fun! Its a bit like SimCity. You know what SimCity is? Don't know then bloody wikipedia it! Maybe I should go to uni and study like everyone else... but nah, I'll just get even more distracted and I'll get tired when I come home. I'll just lock inside my bedroom and 'try' to study... Exam is on Friday. Been learning this subject from scratch. A bit worried... cos I need good marks on this subject to get into my postgrad nxt year! Yikes!

Weekends are never uni-related productive

Here we are again...

I never enjoy weekends even though they are uni-free days. And even though I make money at work, I never get any uni homework done. When it comes to the following week, I then learn I am stuffed because I haven't done any hw for any my subjects. Then when it comes to the tutorials, I look like a total fool cos I dunno anything!

Take this weekend for example. I aim to get x2 maths assignments out of the way + start on my huge OR assignment (+ oral) + prepare for Supply Chain Management tute... but what has turned out?? I just got 20% done of one of my assignments. =.=

Weekends are always hetic. And never get 'me' time. Like this w/e, I had a a split shift at work on Saturday, in-between a 21st... then sunday was a 9 hr shift + church afterwards. When I got home each day, I was just wrecked. On both days, I had dinner and watched TVB afterwards. I couldn't even stay awake for a whole episode. How sad is that?? Goes to show I was really tired.

I'm skipping uni today! Trying to get some shit done~

I shall return soon! When I start prcrastinating again...

habit...

its becoming a regular thing... whenever I procrastinate, I start to blog here.

nuthing much's been happening. but... I did went to a few concerts recently! Lady GaGa and Kelly Clarkson.

Kelly Clarkson was the highlight! I had front row tickets. Which meant there was not a single head in front of me when I had my "Kelly Clarkson Moments" ... *day dreams* oh my, Kelly Clarkson standing right in front of me, singing her hits... and then she looks down at me! OMgoodness! What an unbelievable moment/feeling that was! I know she saw me, because I made eye contact with her for a brief second. My next goal: To touch Kelly Clarkson~ Even though I was front row, there was a massive gap between the stage and seats. It is where the security guards stand to stop anyone from jumping onto the stage. I just want to hug her and tell her how I adore her so much. hrm... maybe not, bit gay isn't?? but I surely want a photo with my idol which I started liking her since she released the song 'Breakaway' and confessed my feelings for her every since she sang 'Since U Been Gone' LOL! XD (just kidding)

Been to 4 Kelly Clarkson gigs. 3 Official ones, and one as a secret event bak in '08~

Ah, better do some hw. Maybe I'll watch 1/2 an episode of some tvb first...

embarrassment

thought i would share one of my embarrassment moments with you. it all happened on the first day of uni... and i was going to my lecture for graph theory... its at a new place which I never been before. its sort of off campus, like you have to cross the bridge to get there. but anyway... on with the story...

instead of walking across the bridge, I walked up the stairs on the side of the building, because I was already on that side of the road right... cos if i was at campus, I would just cross the bridge from on the david caro building. anyway, I walked up the stairs thinking I was at level 1 of the building. You would think that cos it didnt seem I walked up a lot of stairs. And I remembered that my lecture theatre was on level 2 of the same building. I walked around... exploring, still thinking it was level 1. I thought I would be smart for once and take the lift instead of walking up the stairs again cos I'm such a lazy bugger.

So I waited for the lift. I went in, and there were 2 people already in there. And I pressed the number '2' and the light appeared. And I was like... good, I don't have to walk up the stairs!! Once i pressed it, I closed the door on the lift, the lighting on the level 2 suddenly disappeared. At that moment I thought to myself... SH*T, was I already on level 2?? couldn't be, cos I looked around already.' when it arrived at level 3, i saw the number flash at 3. So I DID get on at level 2, and I was already at level 2. I was so embarrassed! cos there were people in the lift. and they saw me press number 2. and clearly I was in lvl 2 already. Anyway, I stayed in the lift, and went back down to the level I got onto the lift.

Who is that stupid that you wouldn't take a peak around and look for signs to see what level you were on? I guess... ME!! I'm that stupid! *sigh* luckily no one else saw me got onto the lift besides those two people that were already in the lift. Thank-goodness they weren't students either, they were just construction workers, so I probably won't see them again!!

Thats my story. i'll check in again another time.

jackson.

naivety

i'm like watever now... not going to try to make an effort. like whats the point when you know its not gonna work out? but a stupid side of me always think, "yes! it'll happened!!" I'm not gonna bother anymore. If they want to fix it, then they can go ahead and take the initiative.

Déjà vu really... seems like the same thing has happened exactly a year ago. i hope things won't turn out as before because a part of me really regrets what had happened!!but i think i made the right decision right?? too late to mend it now. so naive of me in some sense, expecting something to happen... but obviously i know it won't!!

seriously... *sigh*

Holidays

Well... I'm officially on Holidays! I've earned enough at Coles for the past 5 weeks and now I'm going and try and get my life back together... clean up my room... clear out my wardrobe AND... plan for my overseas trip. WHOO! Off to singapore, hong kong, south korea, cambodia and quite possibly to Japan too. XD

I wonder if anyone still reads this even though I've taken the link off MSN. Well I highly doubt it... cos I don't think anyone has actually bookmarked my blog. So I guess I am talking to myself these days with this blog.

laterz.